Troblesome...

These few days, I really cried at lot! I need someone to talk to… But there is no one to talk to… My close friends have already studied in different college. Yes, for me in Psdc College, I have girlfriends. But we are not so close... I just need to express my feelings to someone. Just a few days ago (Friday), my mother came to fetch me back from college just like the ordinary day. Then she phone me that she have already arrived. On the phone, she sounded very angry. She then ask me to quickly come down. When I went down, she suddenly ask me that wherether I am still with Jack…? She started to scold me. She talked in a load voice. At that moment, I was scared and stunted! She started asking me many questions… Such as, Do I still like him? Love him? Are you two still together? You two still text each other?  Everytime in college, you two sit together? Everytime you go out with your friends, izzit also included with him? Do you have to do like this? Why do you put your status as in a relationship in facebook? (as it is in public) She asked me to give a reason… To prove to her I am not with him. At that moment, I just answered all No No No!!! Nothing happen between me and him! I didn’t be with him. I lied to my mom. She scolded me from seeing me until she drove home… When we reached home, she asked me to go to bath! She said to me, she felt disappointed and she can’t have a trust on me! She told me college life is to be enjoyment, do not be too early to have a boyfriend. Boys are just against one thing that is SEX! She told me that she and my dad already had a bad impression on him. At the fist glance on him, they felt he was a bad guy. He is that kind of guy. But in my heart, I really want to tell my mother that actually we are always together, he is not that bad as you all think. He is a good person, takes care of me, always guide me in my studies. He always teaches me the subject that I am poor in it. How to find this kind of guy in this world? He did many things that I don’t ever think that he will do for me. Just give you two examples, on one day we and my college friends when to QBM to have lunch and to go there to have a look on laptops. After that when we are back to college, I discovered that I have lost my purse. So, he just told me he will help me to find it. He asked me to go to class first! Then he went off… Did you know he went to where to find? He went to the QBM car park to find my purse. OMG, >_<” after that I recheck my school bag, my purse was inside. It was a mistake. OMG again! I just quickly tried to phone him to ask him to come. As I already found it. Second example is I and him went out together. Then a sales girl asked me to went in to her shop to do a skin experiment! He then waited outside. The sales girl asked me to purchase this product. The product is quite expensive. It cost about RM79. After that I went out from the shop. He saw me I was holding something on my hand. Then he scolded me for buying this product as the product is for slimming! Then he asked the product is how much? I don’t dare to tell him. After that he knew it, and I get scolded by him. He took RM79 and gave it to me. He knew that if my mom found out I spend so much money on such thing, she will kill me. Then continue to the part, before I went to bath, I told my mother I put my status as in a relationship is because I DO NOT WANT BOYS TO COME AND DISTRUD ME !! They are really ANNOYING!! I HATE THIS KIND OF FEELINGS! Just like some guys, see my photos and they will come and chat with me and started to ask for my contact number or then ask me out. Or not will ask can you be my girlfriend? For me, It is really ANNOYING! I HATE IT!!! Then after that, my mother only started to believe me. She said she will monitor me this few days. Ok, my problem have sloved. But I will be still with him. I yesterday only cired. Hehe. Cry like a baby! @_@ Already 18 years old… Ok, well I have reported to my blog… The end. I miss my friends very much. Zhi Ting where are you?